First off…GO BILLS! What an amazing season we are having so far. 4-0….like honestly? I can’t even explain how happy that makes me!
So it seems as if the last few months have been all about making big decisions.
The first big decision was deciding to move off campus into a house with three guys I didn’t know. This decision pretty much guaranteed my “friendships” at Canisius would probably be forever changed with certain people and in the end I would look like the bitch who abandoned two of her friends. I have to admit I do have problems with people not liking me and being the one who looks like the bad person. But honestly, what was I supposed to do? Put my needs and wants behind me and live in a situation that I know, would in the end, most likely be disastrous with me as the victim? Usually I would say Yes, and put others feelings and needs before mine but this past year I have grown a backbone. I have learned to say no and think of myself before others and as difficult as it has been I think it has been better for me. Sure, the girlfriends I have here feel bad for the girls I had to leave but I had to do it for myself and I’m proud of that.
Second big decision was finally, after all the ups and downs letting my ex go. I decided to give him a second chance after the last blog and well after only a few days I began to ask myself what are you doing? Why are you putting yourself through this when you know it will end poorly? I think I felt like giving him a second chance because I liked certain aspects of our relationship. But in the end I knew it would just all fall apart and I would be back where I was a few weeks ago: lonely, sad, and confused as all hell.
So what did I do? I let him go – I didn’t push the relationship into working and just let go. That is a huge accomplishment for me and I owe some major credit to my sister for helping me out and talking to me about everything. She gave me the push to let him go by making me realize that I deserve better and that I am a stronger person then I think. It was a breath of fresh air being able to talk to her and a breakthrough in our relationship. I value her opinion so much and she helped me be strong and fend for myself, qualities she possesses and uses beautifully.
My parents and my cousin helped me out as well. I am so lucky to have such amazing people in my life. My family IS my life and I would not have it any other way.
So over the last few months I’ve let a few people go in my life. It has not been easy, hell it has been ridiculously hard and painful and I’ve shed many a tears over them but now it is time for me to take care of myself and let things fall into place day by day.
In other news I’ve been working out at the gym and I feel better then ever. It feels so great to have a routine and I am trying to just get back on track.
Hope everyone had a great weekend! GO BILLS! Smile 
—Always telling the truth….-Evelyn
Making great strides forward Evelyn! Very proud of you!